Have you lost anyone close to you? Or maybe an animal? I don’t know, just lost.
19 years ago I watched my mother take her last breath. I was 19.
Last night I was going to bed, I was falling asleep, my brain was just about to shut off and head into that lovely dream state and then BAM! Like a shovel to the face I was suddenly hit with the image of my mother taking her last breath.
I was taken back to that afternoon and the night before hand and the last 24 hours with my mother watching her slip completely away. She fought her battle with cancer for two years but that last 24 hours is the one that sticks with me the most.
It came out of no where and completely threw me for a loop.
To anyone who is lucky enough to not have experienced this loss, you never fully recover. Yes it’s gets easier to live your life day to day, but then you’re knocked off your feet. Tears sting your eyes and you hope that you can get your shit together before it becomes a full on sob. Especially if you’re currently at work.
You feel so alone in this darkness. This loss. But sadly there are many people feeling the same as you. Not having their best friend to talk to everyday, their touchstone, their parent.
To anyone reading this, if you need someone to talk to, to share exciting news with, to ask for advice, I am here. I will help in anyway I can. A burden shared is a burden halved. I can be your friend, your listening ear whatever!!
Xx Kristan
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