Of course I love my daughter. She’s so funny and headstrong. She’s exactly like I was, a true mini me! Energy for days until she suddenly passes out on my boob. She amazes me multiple times a day with new words, climbing on things, all the changes that happen so rapidly when they’re toddlers.
But hear me out….I need a break 🤦♀️🤪 by the time she was old enough to be away from my boobs long enough to go see a movie or have a meal with my husband, and by the time I was okay to be away from my baby, Covid was full throttle.
I have not had a date night with my husband in almost 2 years. I have not seen my best friend since last August. I’m struggling keeping my own identity alive throughout this transition into motherhood.
I feel bad for my daughter who doesn’t even know her grandparents other than through a phone screen. Thankfully she goes to daycare and gets to socialize with other kids.
But mummy needs a minute. I’m more than sure that many women can relate. Men too! These days the only breaks we get are going to the grocery stores. One parent has to be with the baby so the other can have 20 minutes for a bath and quiet time. No drop offs at the grandparents or Auntie’s.
It takes a toll on your marriage that’s for sure. I am now responsible to make my day happen as well as hers. Dressing two people, packing both our lunches, making sure we’re both taking the herbs and eating the foods needed to keep us both healthy. It’s a lot.
Also, when was the last time you got to poop alone? In peace??? I think mine was last weekend. When daddy was home to watch her. Although she was still banging on the locked door crying for me.
I’m not complaining. I’m honoured to be this little humans mother. I know that there are many people that would give anything for this life of mine. I am blessed and grateful.
I just wanna poop in peace once in a while!
Xx Kristan
Getting Healthy with Kristan 